Guilty

I blame myself everyday for loading too much weight in my tired heart.
Maybe forget about the past would help, maybe not.
I find myself thinking over and over again about my life without me, I can´t help it. Often I feel emotional, crying, and blue.
I´m still waiting for the one person who will take me away from myself, from these thoughts.
My family helps me every single day, lucky me to have them.
Lucky me, my sister had a baby boy, a beautiful and healthy boy, he means the world to me, I feel so happy when he´s around.
I also blame myself to feel sad sometimes, I was always a happy girl, and I´m trying so hard to get this girl back, as a woman I am so lost and lonely.